Wednesday, January 21, 2015

Too... (Challenge Day 3)

Something I battle with daily is talking negatively about myself. This negative talk usually shows up in the form of I am too and fill in the blank.

When I was younger it was mostly I'm too fat or too slow. I realized later on, that I wasn't too anything, just really scared of trying.

That fact doesn't stop me from sometimes using that phrase to make excuses for myself. I never started college cause I thought myself to be too dumb... again I feared trying.

My fear of trying has really been a fear of failing. Recently I've been trying to change that.
I completely and utterly failed Calculus 2 a few terms ago! I knew quickly that I would not pass this class, but maybe if I stuck with it I might learn something.

So I didn't drop the course instead took notes, bombed tests and asked questions. After the term I got a letter from the school, warning I could be expelled if I failed again. That letter crushed me, again I felt I was too old and too dumb for school.

Then I took a chance and enrolled for Calc 2 again, this time I got a C! By far the most proud of any grade I have ever gotten.

My point is you are not your preconceived notions of yourself, there isn't a picture  of you in a dictionary with a clear cut definition! You are an infinite amount of possibilities and anything is possible even in the face of adversity. So don't be afraid to be too great! 

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